I always thought she looked like one rib.
Obviously Secret
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What Did "Eve" Look Like? (fluff)
by FMZ in.
well... can't have been that different, after all, they are both perfect... .
fmz
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GIRLS, GIRLS, GIRLS!
by YOUNGHOV in.
i am new to the post and looking to meet girls the age of 18-22. i am a college senior in texas and an ms and my local congregation but there is a shortage of nice looking women around here.
maybe i can meet new friends on here.
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Obviously Secret
Lol which side do you live on up in houston?
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Do you trust JW's?
by desib77 ini guess i'm asking in more of a business aspect?
or in any kind of dealings with them.....for example, because of their morals honesty is "supposed" to be practiced.
would you hire one because of this?
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Obviously Secret
Lol I must have been raised in the good JW country. All of the JWs I know are crazy hard workers, and they never preach more than in field service. Alot of witnesses wouldn't want to witness more than they have to ya know. However, I don't doubt that there's crazy JWs. Infact... thinking about it, I've seen plenty of crazed JWs. Weird thing is "worldlies" can be just as dumb and lazy. So I don't really descriminate in that sense, unless their religion are the "Lazy and Dumb People of God" unless they got that name I'd judge em as lazy right off the bat. But heh just not everybody in one group is like that.
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Do you trust JW's?
by desib77 ini guess i'm asking in more of a business aspect?
or in any kind of dealings with them.....for example, because of their morals honesty is "supposed" to be practiced.
would you hire one because of this?
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Not all JWs are like that but some are. Just like not all worldlies are like that but some are. One witness always buys me ice cream everytime we go and do something, and I just got around and bought him a new tie since his other ones were kind of old. He was very greatful. Those kinds of witnesses are one in a million, not litterally but ya know. I'm skeptical about everybody witness or non witness. So I really wouldn't blink twice if somebody said they were witnesses or not.
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Do you trust JW's?
by desib77 ini guess i'm asking in more of a business aspect?
or in any kind of dealings with them.....for example, because of their morals honesty is "supposed" to be practiced.
would you hire one because of this?
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Obviously Secret
I wouldn't trust them anymore or any less than the next person. I've been shitted on by "worldly" people and I've been shitted on by JW's. If somebody told me that they were JW's id be like, "So?" If they suck at working they suck at the job. I've seen plenty of lazy people at jobs, JWs or not. My brother is the hardest working in the world. While he was a witness and not DFed he had all the bosses loving him cause he did his work and alot of other people's work.
Dunno I don't have many prejudices. If the person sucks the person sucks, if they don't then they don't. Doesn't matter if it's a JW or not.
My mom is a very hard worker, complains sometimes, but just because she's a JW doesn't mean she's a lazy out of touch with reality crazy person. Lol infact at times she's too in touch with reality. It's the person not the religion found plenty of crazy people in JWism and in non-JWism. And seen plenty of good people in JWism, and non JWism. Just if they suck or not.
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Suicidal Thoughts
by Obviously Secret insorry to put such a crappy subject on here but today and like this whole week has been pretty bad.. right when i went to the 5th grade i started getting i was already in the suicidal mood of things and always thought about killing myself or killing a whole bunch of other people.
all during elementary school kids picked on me since i had a habbit of crawling into corners and crying or just sitting and rocking in those corners.
i couldn't talk to anybody, i stuttered and i threw up every time a person talks to me for too long that pushed away alot of people they always talked about me throwing up all the time and everything.
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Obviously Secret
No Sassy I need to download MSN... But I will and I'll give it out later on.
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Suicidal Thoughts
by Obviously Secret insorry to put such a crappy subject on here but today and like this whole week has been pretty bad.. right when i went to the 5th grade i started getting i was already in the suicidal mood of things and always thought about killing myself or killing a whole bunch of other people.
all during elementary school kids picked on me since i had a habbit of crawling into corners and crying or just sitting and rocking in those corners.
i couldn't talk to anybody, i stuttered and i threw up every time a person talks to me for too long that pushed away alot of people they always talked about me throwing up all the time and everything.
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Obviously Secret
I might be going to a therapist later on next week. Thanks everybody. Just feelin down as usual. If I could talk to people without shaking or acting weird I'd have no problems at all.
And btw, weed doesn't kill your brain lol, actually helped me through alot of stuff. But don't worry people I quit all that stuff. But oh well I'm just trying to do stuff. It's near immpossible to do it but I'm trying at least. Thanks again.
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Suicidal Thoughts
by Obviously Secret insorry to put such a crappy subject on here but today and like this whole week has been pretty bad.. right when i went to the 5th grade i started getting i was already in the suicidal mood of things and always thought about killing myself or killing a whole bunch of other people.
all during elementary school kids picked on me since i had a habbit of crawling into corners and crying or just sitting and rocking in those corners.
i couldn't talk to anybody, i stuttered and i threw up every time a person talks to me for too long that pushed away alot of people they always talked about me throwing up all the time and everything.
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Obviously Secret
I've been taking medication such as retalin and stuff for forever. Was considered to have ADD when every kid has ADD pretty much. Took Xanax for the longest but I become physically depended on them and I started popping like 9 a day. So I don't know. I feel it would all be over very quickly if I had a friend to talk to about it. Not a therapist a real friend. That would get me over a huge hill. However, my self confidence is like non-existant so I doubt I can do that so im just tryin my hardest to be friends with people. It's not workin well but I'm tryin. I'm feelin better since I got all this support here but im still pretty down. My goodness it's weird at times. I know your heart is just a muscle but it litterally feels like your heart is being torn out. Hurts so freakin bad but I'm tryin.
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Suicidal Thoughts
by Obviously Secret insorry to put such a crappy subject on here but today and like this whole week has been pretty bad.. right when i went to the 5th grade i started getting i was already in the suicidal mood of things and always thought about killing myself or killing a whole bunch of other people.
all during elementary school kids picked on me since i had a habbit of crawling into corners and crying or just sitting and rocking in those corners.
i couldn't talk to anybody, i stuttered and i threw up every time a person talks to me for too long that pushed away alot of people they always talked about me throwing up all the time and everything.
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Obviously Secret
I quit smoking around 4 months ago. I quit to try to gain a little bit of self confidence to know I can quit and get over it by myself but it's just hitting me again. Just sucking right about now. Thanks everybody but it's just sucking right now.
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Suicidal Thoughts
by Obviously Secret insorry to put such a crappy subject on here but today and like this whole week has been pretty bad.. right when i went to the 5th grade i started getting i was already in the suicidal mood of things and always thought about killing myself or killing a whole bunch of other people.
all during elementary school kids picked on me since i had a habbit of crawling into corners and crying or just sitting and rocking in those corners.
i couldn't talk to anybody, i stuttered and i threw up every time a person talks to me for too long that pushed away alot of people they always talked about me throwing up all the time and everything.
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Obviously Secret
Sorry to put such a crappy subject on here but today and like this whole week has been pretty bad.
Right when I went to the 5th grade I started getting I was already in the suicidal mood of things and always thought about killing myself or killing a whole bunch of other people. All during elementary school kids picked on me since I had a habbit of crawling into corners and crying or just sitting and rocking in those corners. I couldn't talk to anybody, I stuttered and I threw up every time a person talks to me for too long that pushed away ALOT of people they always talked about me throwing up all the time and everything. So I was always the main kid to pick on all the way through elementary school but I didn't start going into the suicidal mood till the 5th grade.
In the 6th grade I started cutting myself like... once every 2 weeks pretty much. It was a hard time cause most of the kids from my elementary school came to the same middle school as me so they kind of went up to the teenage kind of making fun of people with like pranks that actually hurt way worse than just name calling. Right at the begginning of the school year a person put a letter in my locker saying, "I like you alot and I want you to meet me in the back of the school after the last bell rings." I was so freakin excited about hearing this I was happy for the first time ever in school for the whole day. I was just dreaming of how cool it would be the whole time in school it would be to have a girlfriend finally. When I went to the back of the school some kids walked up while I was back there and poured alot of bleech all over my hair and my cloths and were making fun of me for thinking a girl would actually want to go out with me. This put me over the edge like the whole 6th grade year. So after that I started to cut myself as I said every 2 weeks and sometimes alot more. All during the 6th grade year people made fun of that event mercilessly and always talked about how my hair was blonde and whitish when I'm a black guy, so it looked pretty rediculous.
From 7th grade and 8th grade I started to stop throwing up slowly when I tried to talk to a person. I took counselling and went to theropy from like 3rd to the 9th grade but it never really helped. I started smoking weed at like the middle of the 8th grade because I was trying to fit in with a few people. Most of the people that knew me as the throw up kid left for other schools or graduated from middle school so I could finally make some friends with the local potheads of the school. I started to actually talk to people half way well but I still stuttered and I could never look at a person. I was really depressed at this time like at many other times through my whole school experience, elementary to now.
In the 9th grade I started doing harder drugs since the dealers I was buying from were known for their coke and E. So I started doing them here and there, those things put me into an even worse mood. About 2 months in the 9th grade I was just sitting in my room reflecting on all the stuff that made my life suck and so I was just so fed up with it I just decided to end myself right there. I took about 17 tylenol PM tabs and about 5 Xanax tabs. I was so freaked out by how all that stuff felt so I passed out before taking the rest of them. I could call that a suicide attempt but it totally sucked but oh well.
When I came back from the December Winter break or whatever. I got arrested for caring some weed in my back pack. One of the kids that use to call me throw up kid, which was almost everybody, ratted me out and I got arrested. That was a pretty sucky time for me. I had to go to an alternative school for the rest of that 9th grade year and I had to go through court and everything like that. I denied it all the way pretty much.
So after that alternative school (AKA School prison, litterally) I went to this ghetto!!!! school near my house since I couldn't go back to my regular school. It was such hell. I couldn't make friends with anybody, not like I could have anyways, but everybody acted so ghetto and were so ignorant I couldn't even think about making friends. The kids there didn't do anything really except call me names since I was always by myself reading books and always answered the questions that the teacher asked. I had to go through a year of that now it's summer.
I've been knowing the girl I like for about... 6 months. She really don't give a second thought to me since we only met about 4 or 5 times but I think about her constantly. She's so crazily cool and she has such an open mind while still being a JW. She's so beautiful it's amazing. I was about to go to a little wannabe JW party today but I don't think she's going with me. I started contemplating all of the terrible things about me and I started thinking about killing myself constantly. Really been doing that all week pretty much and just here and there since forever.
My sister came in while I was crying terribly this morning saying I hate myself for like 30 minutes. We were about to go to the bookstudy but I was crying and stuff. So she came in and stuff and she didn't really think it was too big of a problem just thought I was nervous about this wannabe party. So I said nothing and she so left.
Really I just told you my life story just to show you why I have these "suicidal thoughts" and crap. I know it's cheezy and angsty but it's starting to hurt like it did up in middle school and I don't think that's all too good.
Just wondering if you guys ever had these kinds of things happen to ya with the suicidal thoughts or whatever and what you did to overcome them. OR you guys can give me some advice on how to cope with this stuff.